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This Ikasu thing's got me a bit upset and I realize I shouldn't let it get to me but...
Sometimes, it's just hard to let go of something you love.
Maybe I didn't DJ but I did what I could to help and I loved seeing them up there.
I loved being able to just let go and escape from everything for just one night.
That was my escape from the world and it feels like they've taken it away from me.
I want to go to Ikasucon.
I really do.
It's just that I can't go without Andre.
I don't have any money or a place to stay.
I just.. don't know.
A part of me just wants to give up convetions for good since they all seem to be full of too much drama.
Maybe I made the wrong friends...
or maybe I shouldn't get involved with staff again.
I think that would be the best bet.
Sadly, as long as Andre's involved, I am too.
I just want to DJ.
I want them to DJ.
I want to dance and feel the atmosphere of it all.
I want Sugoicon to hurry up and get here.
I think I need to get my head out of the clouds and get my priorities straight.
I need to work on my life and figure out what the fuck I want. I'm getting tired of always ended up at the begining again. I want to help out Andre, I want to help others but the thing is, how can I do that when I can't even help myself right now? I need to figure things out soon. I need to talk to my dad and try to get a car. I should start looking for a job and start getting prepared for school. I'm not going to worry about getting a dollfie right now. What would be the point of it? I'll like it till it breaks or I run out of things to do with it and it'll just sit there and collect dust like everything else. I should focus on a car, laptop for college, and so many other things. Hell, even DJ equipment would be a better investment thatn a dollfie righ now.
I just want to get out of this house for a weekend and hang out with some friends in Ohio. I hope my dad can do us some justice when it comes to a car. I really love being able to go places with Andre and I'm sure he does too.
I just keep telling myself that 18 is just right around the corner. I don't know if I want to be excited about it or afraid. A year and a half and I'll be free to fuck up even more than I do now. *laughs*
I need to get back on my regular sleep pattern and start eating right. This waking up at 3pm and eating one meal a day shit isn't working for me.
I think I'll start working on that right... now.
*sleeps*
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[5.23.06 - 10.25pm] |
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I'm actually in a good mood today..
Even though a few bad things happened, I feel content.
This makes me happy. :D
I'm saving for my doll.
I might have a commission that'll bring in about 300-500 bucks.
All of it's going towards my doll.
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[5.21.06 - 8.57am] |
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Well...
I get to go to my first real concert this summer.
Dir en grey is coming to Cincinnati so I'm going.
They'll be touring with other bands and such but I'm not really interested in them.
I'm hoping to get decent tickets. I really don't want lawn tickets. Even if they are 10 bucks,
I'd much rather be closer to the stage.
Well, I have a birthday party to go to today. I should probably draw something for the person since I'm too poor to buy them gifts.
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| -try this - |
[5.3.06 - 3.55pm] |
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stolen from Ari :B
"What is your perspective of me? Using a candybar doll maker make a doll of me from what you remember of my looks and post it here in the comments. Once you've posted here, ask the same in your own journal and see what your friends think you look like!"
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| -Audience Killer Loop- |
[4.23.06 - 11.25am] |
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You know,
It's almost hard to believe that this song can blow speakers.
I didn't believe it till I played it.
It reminds me of how blown my speakers already are.
*boom boom fuzz fuzz*
Remember this Hito?
"keeping the beat going till I trip over the cord"
Kitty's famous quote.
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| -gackt- |
[2.7.06 - 12.42am] |
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Gackt M.S. Camui] is a Japanese pop musician, widely popular in both America and Japan. His name is usually written in English, despite being Japanese, and is pronounced similarly to a penguin choking on a bagel.
Think that's funny? Read more:
http://uncyclopedia.org/wiki/Gackt
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[2.6.06 - 12.57am] |
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After you die...
the Beetlejuice Waiting Room
After death, you will end up in an overcrowded waiting room sitting beside Beetlejuice. You've been given the number 736 076 827 378 919 023, but they are currently serving number 3. Good Luck.
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Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
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[1.30.06 - 12.57am] |
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| You Are a Schoolgirl! | 
You're not quite as wild as a "kogyaru", but with your short plaid skirt
and silly white socks, you're still a sexual fetish object.
You can usually be seen hanging out in the girly section of the video game places,
collecting photobooth stickers of you and your friends. You may not be as innocent as you look.
Did those vending machine panties once belong to you? |
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[1.15.06 - 11.23am] |
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I just realized something...
soap is a funny word.
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| yesh.. |
[12.29.05 - 11.02pm] |
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I'm in a better mood now that xmas is over.
I want to clean my room now.
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[12.19.05 - 11.06pm] |
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I'll be moving into a new appartment tommarrow and I have to find a way to get Kai to a safe place till I can get him neutered because he just started spraying today and the landlord for our new appartment hates cats..
I hope this all works out.. ;;
I'll write more later.
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[12.16.05 - 7.34pm] |
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You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.
Image Copyright Sheila Wolk (prints available
through treefreegreetings.com) - words added by
myself.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla
This actually amazed me. I very rarly get results like this so I guess in a way I feel.. good.
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[12.4.05 - 8.47pm] |
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| Your IQ Is 95 | 
Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Average
Your General Knowledge is Above Average |
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| X-mas List thingy. Stole from Korthie... :D |
[12.4.05 - 3.55pm] |
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~STEP ONE~
*Make a post (public, friends locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ (OR GJ!). The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
*If you wish for real-life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where someone could get in touch with you.
~STEP TWO~
*Surf around your friends list (or friends friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:
*If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.
*You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.
*There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
My List:
1. A new harddrive (40-as big as they get GB)
2. D Plushie.. ;;
3. A cosplay made of Windows 98 OS-tan since I cant sew
4. Dollfie.. (though I know getting that one is impossible)
5. pleated skirts (I wear a size um... 3 in womens. Please try to make them short but school apropriate)
6. Commission from :devzeiva: , :devkorth: ,:devnolavon: , :devhezachan: , :devargento: , or :devbishounenhunter:
7. new speakers for my computer
8. A PS2.. it doesnt have to be new
9. zomg.. VAMPIRE HUNTER D NOVEL VOLUME 3! (it doesnt come out till January lol.. angst)
10. sakura mircon pen thingys/ copic markers. (I'm sure you artsy people out there know what type I need)
IF any of you actually plan to get me any of this stuff, in order to recieve my real address please email me at dita@n1nj4.org
Thanks muchly.. :D
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| RandomMemethingyOFdoom.. |
[11.8.05 - 9.01pm] |
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1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your live journal and see what I say about you?
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| arar.. Sugoi |
[11.1.05 - 1.58am] |
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In other news...
Sugoicon was well.. fun I guess. There wasnt as much drama as I expected. I finally cosplayed which was fun though I dont think I will ever cosplay again. I didnt like havint to stand in line and wait to be judged.
The Jrock concert was nearly my death. Though I do have a piece of the lead singer's pants.. :P
As for the dance...
Panda's set was kick ass as usual. Hearing VNV Nation made my day. Hito's set.. also good as usual. Didnt stay for AJ's. Miku's was full of remixes and I actually think he did pretty good. Even though we lost our harddrive right before Sugoi Kitty managed to pull through. Even though he mess up a bit he managed to fix things and not only that I think the crowd like what he played since alot of them complain about the dance not having enough anime music.
On Sunday I finally got my chance to DJ my heart out. It was such a wonderful experience. I did mess up the first time. Kitty left me there by myself and I forgot that if you push play again it would restart the song so I transitioned into a song that was already playing. I made up for it by playing some spiffy stuff. Played a Diru remix and a few other things and people seemed to like it. Maybe If I'm lucky I can do some hall DJing at Ikasu and next Sugoi.
I'd say this con was alot better than Ikasu. We came back with EVERYTHING and there wasnt as MUCH drama.
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| PLEASE. I NEED YOUR HELP! |
[10.27.05 - 5.56pm] |
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Right now I'm being forced to get rid of my cat because my landlord is a fucking asshole who lets my mom keep a hugs ass boxer who shits in the floor but not a cat who just does nothing.
So.. IF there's anyway someone can take my cat for me till this coming spring, I'd be so very happy. I will pay the person to take care of him till we move if money is needed. I will gladly do anything for my cat since he is like a child to me. PLEASE.. This is serious to me. If I loose another cat I dont know what I'll fucking do...
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